Last Chance (Bella/Open)

[Edward Anthony Cullen]

Trees flashed by, leaves stirred in his wake, how could he of been so foolish? to risk it all, his heart had been stolen, he had left it behind in the woods with the delicate flower that was Bella. Not only had he left his heart, but his soul, every single emotion he felt, it was all because of Bella at that moment. Yet he had turned her away, told her know, had he led her on? possibly.. He had, had no intention of doing so, yet the damage was already caused now. Slowing to a jog, each step felt like led, he ached there was a deep whole, he felt empty. Edward had done the right thing hadn't he? Who knew.

It was too late now. As he left the woods, his gaze fell onto the large house before him, his home, yet he had said no to Bella, and he had every good reason to, She was due to marry Jacob, due to start a life, a life he couldn't ever give her. No. She was better off with Jacob. He moved across the gravel drive way up to the steps. He had to leave, he had promised Bella that he would leave if she said the word, and that was exactly what he was doing.

Opening the front door he moved swiftly up the stairs thankful that neither Carlilse or Emmett was in, the last thing he needed was a confrontation from his father and his brother. No, he would leave them a note. Once in his room, without thought he grabbed the nearest thing and through it partly across his room. Frustrated among all he felt suddenly so very alone, after all of these years, searching for something..for anything. Edward had finally found his reason, perhaps even his purpose, yet he couldn't have it, he didn't deserve it, not Bella, no, she was better off with Jacob he just had to keep telling himself that.

Moving across his room he grabbed the bag from beneath his bag, and moved swiftly around his room, packing clothes, money odd bits and pieces, he had to leave, had to before he did something stupid. Namely turn back around and go after Bella once again, to beg her to forgive him, if only they could be together, happily together. Yet it was never that simple, never would be, he wasn't like her, never would be. He was a monster, an unnatural being. Something, someone that didn't fit in either heaven or hell, no. He was stuck cast to suffer eternity in limbo, alone. That was how it should be, he deserved nothing better. Not after everything he had done. The voices, the screams, the pleas..they still haunted his mind, his being, tainting him that much further.

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[Isabella Marie Swan]

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I dont want you in my life. I dont want you at my school or with my friends or anywhere near this town

Those were the words that seemed to haunt Bella. Her dreams, her every thought, every time she tried to focus on something else, her mind was brought back to that day in the forest. That day with him. With Edward.
Even after saying all that she said, she could not forget him. The look in his eyes, the feel of his lips and the way he held her in his arms. So protective, so strong and yet gentle all at the same time. It was different when she was with Edward, she didnt have to worry about any of her problems she had at home. She didnt have to worry about Jacob or anything else. All her problems vanished when she was with him.

She parked her truck at the twisted path of trees and bushes that led to the Cullen home. She was happy now that Carlisle was a well known doctor, people knew where he lived and Jacob knew his way around the forest. She'd gotten directions from him, saying she needed to go over some homework with Edward. A lie, but he didnt need to know that.

The brunette ran up the path as fast as she could, falling once but managed to get back to her feet.

The run wasnt long from where she parked her cars, just four minutes but by the time she'd made it the front door, she was out of breath, panting slightly and her heart was racing.
Just tell him...tell him you dont want him to leave... she thought to herself, taking a moment to catch her breath before adjusting the sleeves on her jacket and moved to see if the door was open.

Of course it was, it didnt make sense for them to lock their doors. No one would come to see them when they lived in the woods. That and the fact that they were more than capable of protecting themselves from anyone stupid enough to come and try to rob them.

Hesitantly, she let herself in and shrugged off her jacket, tossing it on a nearby couch. She wans't sure if anyone was home but she was going to try anyway.
As she made her way up the stairs, she paused for a moment before breaking into a sprint the rest of the way. She didnt care if they knew she was here. She just wanted to see him, to apologize.

It took her a total of two minutes to find his room and she frowned when she saw him packing "Dont..." she stopped talking for a few seconds in order to catch her breath "Dont leave..." she looked at him as she spoke, her expression soft but stern "Please dont leave...you cant- I dont want you to...you cant leave." she stuttered, struggling to get her sentences out.
She stepped closer to him, standing a mere two feet from him with her arms straight and at her sides, her hands shaking.

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[Edward Anthony Cullen]

His head was racing his chest, empty and aching, he felt alone, and incomplete, but when he was with Bella, everything was different, everything had a meaning..a purpose. Bella was his purpose, his very reason of his existence, yet he had let her go, just like that, without a thought, perhaps he had made a mistake.. or maybe he was just damned to live eternity alone? To never find happiness, Bella was his happiness, he knew that now, the taste of her lips still stung his own, the sweetness, the warmth everything had changed in that one moment, he had felt happy, and at peace with everything, perhaps even himself for that one moment. As he chucked the last of his essential clothing into his travel bag, he heard the sudden rush of footsteps, defiantly not his family they were far to quiet for their own good. He froze suddenly as a scent so strong floated into the room, and moments later was accompanied by the one voice, he never thought that he would hear again. Bella's.

Her breathing was heavy her tone rushed, clearly she struggled to get any words out of her, any that he would understand at least. Yet he heard her loud and clear and perfectly well even if you ignored her erratic heart rate.
Don't leave...Please don't leave...you cant- I don't want you to...you cant leave. She said, struggling to form her sentence. Turning around to face her at that moment, he didn't know what to say, or even what to do, he hadn't thought Bella would clam after him, that she would even know where he lived. Still she had wanted him gone, and he had promised, that she say the would and he would leave so he was only sticking to that promise. Turning partly away from her, his expression still somewhat hurt by her earlier comment. "No, Bella. I need to go, I promised you I would when you said the word. I'll be gone soon." he stated looking anywhere but at Bella, he wondered around his room and packed a few more odd bits and pieces, he had even spoken with Alice. Sure, perhaps he was a coward, but so what? It would hurt even more, if he was to let her go, yet to see her with another.

Turning back around to face Bella, who stood moments away from him, her hands shook, in fact her entire body seemed to shake, with exhaustion perhaps? He looked to her for a long moment, before Edward had to look away, looking down to the floor for a moment a frown on his brow "Alice was right Bella, I am a coward perhaps..She was right again though, what can I possibly give you Bella? I have nothing t give you, no life, no future. I admit.." he paused, and looked to the side, although hurt and pain, and longing with the faint traces of desire were evident on his expression as he looked to her at that moment. "I do Love you Bella..I can't deny that, but it's wrong of me to ask you to drop everything. I guess I'm selfish to an extent..I have to leave, because I know I don't think I could bare to see you with another, but your happiness is all that matters to me." he admitted as Edward held her gaze for a long moment, what more could he say? What more could he do?

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Guilt washed over her as she realized how much her words had hurt him. She couldn't help but feel guilty, sorry and ashamed of herself for acting the way she did. It wasn't like her to say such hurtful things to someone. She loved him, hurting him was the last thing she wanted to do.

She opened her mouth to speak but clamped it shut when he started talking first. She shook her head angrily, not listening to a single word he was saying "I dont want you gone." she whispered, biting her lip lightly. A habit she had ever since she was little. Nervous, mad, upset or hurt she always bit her lip. It was just a reaction "I didnt mean it. I take it back...I want you to stay..." she was desperate for him to stay, desperate to just have him in the same town...she didnt care if they were together or not.

At the mention of Alice, her eyes widened and her expression changed "Alice? Your talking to my sister about whats best for me?" she shook her head, walking closer to him, close enough that if he was human -or if she was a vampire- she would have slapped him for being such a moron.
"You think that because your a vampire, you cant give me a future?..." she questioned, staring at him in slight disbelief "You are my future. I dont care about what you can't give me...your giving me everything I want jst by staying here." maybe she was being selfish, trying to convince him to stay, maybe she was foolish but she was willing...all too willing to give away everything she had going for her just to be with him.

"I am happy..." she breathed, her voice coming out in a whisper 'Im happy with you..."

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When he had finished talking and as he crammed the last of his few belonging into his bag, Bella was quick to reply, her tone desperate. Turning to look at her he stopped packing and simply turned to face her, didn't want him to go? What happened now? What would happen?
I didn't mean it. I take it back...I want you to stay... She pleaded once again, he looked down barely even believing that he was hearing such a thing. Closing his eyes for a moment he sighed softly, was he strong enough? was he really that strong? Could he face the fact of seeing her with someone else. Perhaps. "Bella.." he begun not sure what to say, how to fix such complications, perhaps he should take Alice's advice and simply ignore her? Pretend that she didn't exists, but as he looked to her at that moment, he shook his head slightly. No He couldn't do that, that was something he would never do.

Alice? Your talking to my sister about whats best for me? Bella questioned her tone shocked, her expression gave it all away. At that he looked down for a moment although the faintest traces of a smile itched at his lips. "Yes, and no, She was telling me, what was best for you, and for me for that matter, as well as your fiancee." He admitted faintly amused, he had to hand it to the girl, Alice certainly had a way with her words. She was a feisty spirit, one that stood up for what she believed, she was stubborn, although perhaps faintly foolish. Yet it didn't matter now, what mattered was he and Bella, and where they stood now. Where did it leave them? He watched as she stepped closer, much like a repeat of the time when they were in the forest her scent swan around him, and once again he was drawn to her, the need to reach out and pull her into his arms was strong. Although she looked livid to an extent.

You think that because your a vampire, you cant give me a future?... You are my future. I don't care about what you can't give me...your giving me everything I want just by staying here. Bella spoke a moment later, he shook his head, and looked down to her, pleading her to listen to reason to sense, to make the right choice, to not choose him over all that she had, he didn't deserve it, no matter how much he wanted that, how much he would give for that to happen, a part of him knew it was dangerous, knew it was wrong. Yet all he could think about at that moment was the desire to kiss her, and he was currently only just restraining himself. Moment later as she moved an inch closer, if he reached out he would touch her, Bella spoke. Happy? Happy with him? If only things were that simple, he would of without a doubt told her to drop everything to run away with him. But things weren't that simple. "Bella.." he begun pausing a fraction as he raised his cold hand and pressed it against her cheek, his gesture affectionate, light and caressing. "You don't realize how much I want that to be true, how much I want to be with you..but what of Alice? your fiancee, everything, I can't ask you to throw it all away for me." he stated, his tone just as soft as he gazed to her, holding her wide brown gaze.

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In all hoensty, Bella wasn't sure what she was thinking when she came here to convince him to stay. She wasn't sure waht she was ging to say or how she was going to say it. She just knew that she wasn't going to leave here until he agreed to stay.

He spoke and her name and she shook her head, knowing what he was going to say. IT would be a repeat of every other conversation they'd had. He wasn't safe for her, he wasnt the right choice...her being with him was a mistake...she should be with Jacob. It would be the same thing over and over and she would refuse to listen, stubborn as always.

"She doesnt know whats best for me!" she snapped, furious. Not at him but at her sister for talking to Edward about her behind her back "She cant possibly know whats best for me..."

She took a breath, trying to calm down as best she could. Her heart beat was steady now, calmer and slower "I know whats best for me...Its not up to her or you or anyone else..." her voice trailed off a bit as he cut her off, once again saying her name and then touching his hand to her face gently. She closed her eyes for a moment, shaking her head "your not asking me to give up anything..." she whispered, letting a brief silence fall between them as she opened her eyes to stare at his "Im telling you...I know what I want. I want you."

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[Edward Anthony Cullen]

Of course, Edward couldn't see any real way he was ever going to get out of this, Bella was both persistent and stubborn, so she would therefor not let up until he agreed to stay, yet still he questioned himself, was he strong enough to watch all that he loved be with another, then again he reasoned. As long as Bella was happy what did it matter? By the look in her eyes, it was clear that she expected the obvious the same repeated words, repeated phrases. Edward knew no matter what he said, or did he doubted very much that it would change her mind.

She doesn't know whats best for me! She cant possibly know whats best for me... Bella snapped her tone distant, although he knew she was far from angry at him, he paused for a moment before he replied. "She's only looking out for you Bella, as I am, but I see her points, and her reason behind it all." Edward commented although by the look he received he wasn't about to continue that subject further. Yet, Bella continued regardless, the look in her eyes, and given her expression she had made up her mind. It was set and there was no way he, or anyone else would convince her otherwise. As Edward caressed her cheek softly for a moment, he was about to remove his hand when she spoke. Yes, perhaps he wasn't asking her but could he really allow her too? Yes and no. He frowned softly stuck between his head and his heart. Lifting his gaze to meet hers, he was overwhelmed by the mixture of emotions he saw, love, guilt, hurt. Where they all caused because of him? With a frown still present on his brow Bella said the few words he was afraid to hear, the few words that would change everything.

I'm telling you...I know what I want. I want you. He wanted to cut her off then to tell her no, to tell her to leave but he was frozen, his hand pressed to her face, he regarded her for a long moment, he would regret his words, that would follow next, perhaps he was being just as selfish the one thing he wanted more than anything was standing before him the one chance he had to say no. He removed his hand, he had to, what other option did he have? So he did the next best thing. He lied. Although Bella would see right though it, everything about him, his past words would give him away. "I don't..want you.." he said, the words tore at him harder then before his breath left in a sudden whoosh and he had to turn away before she could see him fall into pieces right in front of her. Moving away from her he moved to the window, his hands pressed down on the window sill supporting himself before he fell, lies. They were all lies. Yet what other option did he have? But some small part of him knew that Bella would refuse to listen, and that small part of him, wanted that to be true.

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"I don't need her looking out for me! If I want her help, I'll ask for it but this is something she can't decide for me. And neither can you..." Bella said defensively, managing to keep herself together by some miracle when in truth, she wanted to snap, to lose her temper. She wanted to be angry or pretend that she was upset...she couldn't be mad at him. She knew that it was impossible to be mad at him. Despite him claiming to know what was best for her after knowing her for such a short time, she couldn't be mad. Not at him, it was Alice she was mad at.

Her sister, the person she thought she could trust more than anything in the world, the person who was supposed to know her better than anyone clearly didn't know her at all. Had her sister known her, even a little, she would have known that it was Edward that Bella wanted, not Jacob.

She was all too willing to say what she felt for him, to repeat herself once more and to continue to do so until he saw that she was serious about this, about him and her feelings for him but his next words threw her for a loop. She felt like the rug had been pulled out form under her feet, like she was falling, her mind swimming...those words, those four hurtful words had managed to do what she imagined he wanted to do. Break her heart.

She shook her head, lip trembling but she still pressed on, rushing to his side once more. She was more stubborn than he was and if he thought for one second she was going to give up because he was trying to hurt her, trying to trick her into falling out of love with him it wouldn't work.

It hurt, sure but she would never admit to it.

She moved a hand to his cheek as she stayed next to him, frowning "Y-you don't mean that...you cant- you cant mean that..." she whispered, her brown eyes pained, her expression saddened. If he did mean those words, it would only feed into what she knew to be true from the very beginning, she wasn't good for anyone. She was too normal, too average. she wasn't pretty or attractive in any way...Edward didn't want her because she could never compare to him. His perfect, unchanging beauty would never change and she, over time, would grow old...why would anyone like him or Jacob -who could not age- willingly want to be with her?

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Of course, when breached the topic about her sister only being concerned for her, and for her safety, Bella was having not of it, if her yells, and cold tones was anything to go by, she looked like she was about to shout the place down. She too did not like the idea that Edward himself was simply as concerned about her safety as Alice was. For a long moment, Edward remained silent. Waiting until she had calmed down enough to speak rationally, it was then when he told her the lie, a lie in which he hoped she would believe, it was his attempt to get rid of her, to get her to fall out of love with him, he wanted her to hate him.

Slowly he turned around, although his face he knew gave it all away, his eyes swam with emotion, so thick hat it was hard to conceal the guilt, the undeniable desire and lust he felt for her, yet mingled with the rich need to do the right thing, to get her to do the right thing. But of course, Bella saw past that. She was at his side in a moment her hand pressed against his face. He closed his eyes for a moment, but in that one gesture he had given everything away, of course he cared about her, loved her, so deeply that he was willing to hurt her, to hurt himself if it meant keeping her safe, and giving her that chance at a life he could never for one moment give her.

Y-you don't mean that...you cant- you cant mean that... No, he didn't mean that, but he had to lie, he had to. Her expression was hurt, her face torn, the guilt continued to rise, he swallowed hard, how strong could he be? Gently he took her hand and removed it from his face, and repeated his words, "I..don't want...You." the words burned he felt weak, empty heartless, he held onto her hand fro a fraction longer then necessary before slowly dropping it, he looked away, his face pained. His eyes even showed the faintest possibility of tears, tears that would never come. He struggled to find his words, why did he find it so hard to lie to her? "I can't give you, a family Bella, I can't give you a life." He continued each word stung, had he been human he would of taken her at that moment and proposed to her the chance of running away together to start a life, he felt that certain, that sure about his love for Bella, and this lie, this one lie that told her, he didn't want her was the hardest thing above all.

He took half a step back and away from her, not trusting himself to be so close he wanted to reach out and grab her, to kiss away the tears that looked like they would fall at any moment, to sweep her into his arms and tell her everything would be alright. His expression no doubt gave himself away. He did want her, by god did he, more than anything he had ever wanted, more then blood it's self, his life was nothing without her. He looked away and down, his expression on the verge of breaking, his eyes glistened, yet still tears did not fall.

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"No, y- your lying..." she muttered, the words lower than she meant them to be. She couldn't believe he would say that. He wouldnt say that, not now not ever. He told her that he loved her, told her he wanted to be her but it wasnt a good idea, he couldnt say one thing one day and change his mind the next, that wasn't how things worked.

She said nothing more about Alice, she'd deal with her sister later but for now she was focused on Edward and trying to convince him not to leave. Which was proving to be more difficult than she thought it would be "You dont mean that." she took a breath as she looked at him, feeling his cold hands as it gripped her and slowly pulled it away from his face. It just wasn't possible for him to love her and then not want to be with her. The fact that he'd held her hand for such a long period of time only proved her point. He did love her, he did want to be with her. He was just being stupid and stubborn and ridiculously over-protective.

"Your not...your not listening to me. I dont care about that."

She knew that no matter how many times she spoke those words he wouldn't listen to her. He would still try and convince her he wasnt good for her, he wasnt the best choice for her but they wouldnt really know if it was right or wrong until they tried but he was too stubborn to even do that.

"And you say im stubborn." she muttered under her breath, shaking her head slightly and moved closer to him. She'd had enough of him trying to tell her what to do. He couldnt force her to listen to him, she wasn't afraid of him.
She moved so she was face to face with him, moving one hand to his face and the other moved to the back of his neck, moving onto her tip-toes and brought herself closer. Second by second, she inched closer until her lips grazed against his. Her warm and soft lips pressing against his cold lips in a slightly passionate kiss.

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No, y- your lying... came Bella's stuttered response, yes he was, how could he not? he loved her, already and more than he should it hurt to know that he loved someone so much, yet to know that on some level he could never really be with her, not really, she was engaged, due to be married Never cold he ask her to drop everything for him, he wasn't worth that, and Bella shouldn't have to through away her life, and her future, because of him. Looking away, he couldn't dare himself to look into her hurt expression and her pained eyes,
You don't mean that. She saw through him, more than he expected, she was by far more observant too. He wished he did mean it on some level, at least then she would e away from him and safe and have the chance at a future, a future she was about to throw away for him? What could he possibly give her? That Jacob could. Nothing. Edward could give her nothing, other than his heart body and soul and all the money she wanted, if any, but that was all, as for Jacob, he could give her a family, a future, and a life. .

Your not...your not listening to me. I don't care about that. She didn't care? how could she not care? He frowned deeply and shook his head. "No..Bella, your not listening to me, I can't give you what Jacob can, I don't want you to throw away your life, your future. I'm not worth that and I will say it again and again, No Bella." He sated his tone firm as he could muster, before he lifted his eyes to meet hers, yet he knew without a doubt that his eyes simply betrayed the words he spoke, betrayed himself, giving it all away. He heard her mutter about being stubborn, she was as stubborn as him if not more so, suddenly however everything froze, he himself tensed, his jaw became tight, his posture firm. Bella had moved closer, her breath teased at his cold lips, her scent danced in a circle around him playing with the fire that burned deep down. Yet, he knew before any movements before any actions, he knew what she was about to do. "No..Bella don't." He pleaded silently. Yet once again it fell on death ears.

He wanted to move away, at that moment, he wanted to turn away and leave like he had planned to, his room suddenly felt so very small, everything intensified. He knew that another kiss would only make it harder to leave, even if it was a kiss goodbye, yet at the same time, he knew it wasn't good by, he couldn't leave her no matter how he wished at that moment he didn't want to. Suddenly Bella's hand pressed against his cheek, the warmth seemed soothing he felt at peace, for the first time in over a hundred years. Closing his eyes briefly he shook his head, raising his hand he covered Bella's hand. Opening them, his eyes burned a brilliant golden colour, liquid golden, he met Bella wide chocolate brown eyes. Before he could open his mouth to reply, Bella had moved closer, and a further moment later, her lips had pressed against his own. The sensation was more than he thought possible.

The kiss at first was light, testing almost, he wanted to pull away, knew that he should his morals were getting the better of him, he could feel that. Breaking the kiss a fraction yet his lips remaining against hers he raised his hand an cupped her neck and her cheek her heart soared under his touch, her breath increased a fraction "Bella.." he whispered partly groaned in frustration, it was torture. Yet her lips remained close to his own, emotions swelled together he had tasted the forbidden fruit once he wanted another taste. Hesitantly he pressed his lips against Bella's in return, testing once again, after a short kiss his breathing too had increased. His eyes now closed, he had to taste more, His other hand raised to to her cheek, to hold her face softly as he pressed his lips against hers a second time, yet the tension of needing her, wanting her, and knowing that he could not have her, played havoc with his mind, he kissed her deeply, the kiss soon turned into something passionate, a familiar hunger stirred inside of him. His breathing too had increased.

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He continued to tell her things that she already knew to be true. He couldnt give her a family, he couldnt give her anything Jacob could give her. Biut he was giving her everything she wanted and needed just by staying in town. She shook her head a bit, denying everything he said, if he was trying to be more stubborn than she was, it was impossible. She would win this, she couldnt lose him, not now. Not when she had only just gotten to know him.

His eyes met hers and she couldnt help the way her heart beat faster, it seemed to pound against her chest. Again he spoke and it was those same words she didnt want or need to hear, him trying to convince her that he didnt want this. Nearly pleading with her to stop but she knew his words weren't true. He loved her, he'd admitted it and it was far too late to take those words back "Shut up." she groaned in annoyance, hating that he kept trying to convince her he didnt want her. She knew he did, his eyes couldnt lie.

Bella felt his hand as it covered her own and for a fraction of a second, she felt a slight ping of accomplishment. If she could just get him to admit that he did care for her, that he did want her than she wouldnt feel the need to go to such lengths.

But for now, she would need to go to extreme measures. Even if it meant doing something she shouldnt.

The kiss was soft, light and to Bella, it was perfect. Her breathing came harder, her heart beating faster but, as usual the kiss was cut short and he opened his mouth to speak and she was ready to go against everything he would say. However, he'd only managed to speak one word, her name.
She frowned slightly, waiting for him to pull away and tell her that this could never happen but he didnt step away, he didnt stop her. Instead she felt his lips against hers and she instinctively put both her arms around his neck, holding him close and let one hand pull slightly at the hair on the nape of his neck. She reciprocated, kissing back just as deep, just as passionate and moved her body closer to his until they were so close, their bodies touched.
For Bella, it was like time had froze. She hoped and prayed silently that this wasn't a dream and that she wouldnt wake up in her room like she had so many times before...those nights, those dreams of only Edward had suddenly become her reality and she didnt plan on losing this. Not now, not ever.

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[Edward Anthony Cullen]

There was no going back now, Edward had made his choice, although not the best of choices it was made, and there was no fixing it. He was being selfish for the first time in one-hundred years. He wanted the one thing before him at that moment and he had reached out and taken her, like candy from a child. As they kissed the kiss so very intense, his breathing perhaps as heavy as Bella's was at that moment, When Bella moved closer pushing herself against him so their bodies touched a further fire ignited within him, so much so he threated to loose control at that moment, something deep inside of him was burning deeply. Edward's kisses became slightly more urgent perhaps even faintly rough, Bella at that moment didn't help her hands lifted to wrap around his neck as his hands slipped down her body to rest on her hips, the kiss continued for moments, before Bella pushed him further than he would ever be ready, as she gripped at his hair, grabbed at his neck. His hunger stirred. Suddenly he moved his hands up to clasp her face softly and firmly. He then broke the kiss.

The aftermath had his body craving more, his throat aching for more. Yet he kept their lips a part for that moment, he closed his eyes and let out a long breath, in attempts to control his overriding hunger. As he stayed like that for a long moment his head rested against Bella's own, but he looked down, even as he caressed her face held it gently in his cold rock like hands. [b"I..can't."

[/b] was all he really managed to say, who would of ever thought that, he Edward Cullen would ever be struck by words, without a clue of what to say, what to do. He couldn't he had his morals, but the question was, what did they do now. Slowly raising his eyes he met Bella's own, his slightly darkened eyes danced with love and affection, and undeniable desire, he couldn't hide what he felt, no matter how hard he tried. Pulling back further still he looked to her face. "Okay, I lied..I do want you, Bella. So, very much, but I can't Bella, I have my morals, your to be married, It shouldn't be me that you are with, and you certainly shouldnlt let me currupt your virture.." he admitted with a slow crooked smile, the corners of his lips lifted to form a gentle slant, before he then looked down and frowned a fraction before he the looked back to her simply studying her heavy breathing, her soft, swollen lips, and the heated glow that danced in her cheeks, he was lucky they had stopped when they did.

Trailing his hand down the side of her cheek he looked to her, his face and tone serious. "What do we do now? You can't throw it all away, Bella, I won't let you. " he sated that was the last thing he wanted of Bella, on some level as long as she was happy, breathing, and alive nothing really mattered. Slowly his hand slide down from her cheek onto her neck resting there for a moment as he felt her strong rapid pulse, it sounded like music in his ears, the most significant sound in his world that he would ever hear. Slowly, he removed his hands from her face and put some small distance between them. Simply for her benefit, and hers alone. Besides he doubted he was even strong enough, to last yet another moment so close to Bella, without the temptation to bite her.

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Bella frowned slightly when he broke away from the kiss, her lips a light pink. She bit the inside of her cheek, her eyes slightly dazed, heart pounding against her chest. She swore she could hear it beating, loud in her ears. She waited for him to speak, not saying a single word, she couldnt. She was at a loss for words, cuahgt up in the moment. She wondered brielfy if he was mad at her for kissing him, if maybe he had told the truth, he didnt want her...didnt love her. If that was the case, she couldnt blame him. He was beautiful, perfect, flawless and amazing in every sense of the word and she was normal, regular...she wasn't amazingly beautiful or perfect at all, she was average at best.

He spoke, her heart sank. He spoke the few words she wanted to hear. He wanted her, he loved her...he just couldnt be with her.

She chose to ignore what he'd said about corrupting her virtue, ignoring and dismissing most of the conversation. She averted her gaze from his, trying not to stare at the smile he gave..her smile, that perfect, slightly crooked smile she loved so much.
She half closed her eyes when she felt his hands on her face, slowly working to her neck and she attempted to shake his hands from her but it didnt seem to work. He was stronger than she was so she waited untilhe released her to look away from him completely.

He had asked what they should do now and Bella was at a loss for words. If she could, she would have slapped him a long time ago but she knew that would only hurt her and not him which wouldnt make the situation any better Now...I go home..." she half whispered, feeling like an idiot "I think i've embarrassed myself enough for one day..." she didnt look at him, she couldnt look at him. It would only make everything that much harder "Bye, Edward..." she spoke in a slightly formal tone. She didnt see a reason in staying here and there would be no point in trying to be friends with him either. Being just friends would hurt far too much.

She forced herself to keep it together, to not break down and cry. It wasn't easy, she was always terrible at hiding emotion but it was easy when she didnt even give him a chance to speak. She was already out of the room and rushing down the stairs. In too big of a rush to let him get a final word.

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[Edward Anthony Cullen]

When he pulled away from the kiss, his breathing ragged and uneven he looked down to Bella, who's cheeks were flushed and her lips a sweet rosy pink, evidence of he kiss they had recently just shared. He could hear the strong erratic beat of her heart, as well as the fast pace at which it raced. When he spoke the few words which would change everything, he waited. He had told her in blunt terms that he did want her, that he did love her, but because of everything, because of what he had know, and because of what he was, he couldn't be with her. Watching her for moments after speaking to her he finally dropped his hand that had been resting for a brief second on the crook of her neck. It was obvious in some form that Bella was upset, hurt by his words and comments, but what else could he do, Bella had a choice, and by being near him, even with him, that was the wrong choice, a choice he didn't want her to make.

Now...I go home... Bella stated having asked her what they were to do, if anything Edward was simply getting a whip lash, some of his own medicine, he said nothing for the while and simply listened and watched her reaction they needed to talk about this, what would happen, did she now really expect him to continue as if nothing had happened? he may well be strong but he was certainly not that strong. I think I've embarrassed myself enough for one day... Bella commented the colors returned to her cheeks once again glowing a healthy pink. "Bella..." he begun but she wasn't going to listen, he watched as she bid him goodbye and made a dash for he door, he had wanted to do things differently, one way or another things needed to be sorted. Without thought, he moved swiftly over taking her in mere moments, he then stood before her, his hand held and placed firmly on he front door. "Bella, stop. Please." he asked her, it was he first time he had used his vampuric abilities before her, he was faster than the average vampire than many realized, yet one way or another Bella was not leaving until they sorted this out.

He hated doing things this way but he was limited to options. "You didn't answer my question. What do we do now Bella? Because I am at a loss, I cannot stay, to be your friend, to be therefore you when everyday I will see you with another, I cannot do that, physically and emotionally, If I was to leave then there would be no trouble we could keep in contact if you prefer Bella, but I cannot, see you with another knowing my heart is forever yours. I will never love another as I love you, nor do I wish to love another. I know we have spent so little time together. Yet my feelings, for you have never been stronger, please. We have to sort this out." he suggested. His tone and eyes pleading. If she wished to go then he would let her, in turn he himself would leave. The answer would be as clear as the day then.

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