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Post by Isabella Marie Swan on Feb 14, 2011 11:28:43 GMT -5
Bella had been feeling much better in the days following her accident. SHe'd gotten released from the hospital but she still had killer headaches every now and then. Though the cut had almost full healed it was still very bruised.
Mike had kept asking her if she was okay and Angela had asked twice, Jessica asked five or six times but she was getting tired of being asked if she was alright.
She sighed a bit as she made her way to the Meadow, smiling a bit.
She loved it here. It was quiet and peaceful, a place she could go and be completely alone without worrying about people asking if she was okay or if she was in any pain.
She walked more, her leg still in a cast but she was too hopped up on pain killers to feel much. Of course, the smallest of groans past her lips but it wasn't one of pain, well not entirely...it was more a groan of exhaustion. She hadnt been sleeping much since the accident. Guilt for not telling Jacob about everything that had happened between her and Edward was slowly eating at her concience.
She knew she HAD to tell him but she worried that telling him would result in him leaving her and she wasnt sure she could survive that.
The brunette moved to sit under a tree before laying down, the sun hitting her face and she smiled a bit. The sun felt nice again her skin. She was a bit cold so the warmth reminded her of Jacob that day she'd gotten caught in the rain. He'd held her close to him until she'd warmed up...it was the day she decided to push their wedding day up.
"I'll tell him later..." she promised herself after a few seconds of silent thinking "I'll tell him everything...the kiss, m-my doubts about marrying him....my feelings for Edward. I'll come clean."
(OOC: too lazy to do a fancy threadage. Sorry its short.)
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Post by Edward Anthony Cullen on Feb 14, 2011 18:13:38 GMT -5
 you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTJ U S T T A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -A few days had passed since Edward had delivered Bella to the hospital following her recent car crash, although he did not visit her much during the day given the fact she constantly had Jacob, or her sister Alice there, there had been no need. However Edward had indeed visited her whilst she had slept, at least that way he knew she was safe, each night however he had watched as she had tossed and turned at night, occasionally she would mutter things during the night and each thing she had said kept him hooked, he had sat for hours on end simply watching her, however once he had soothed her during one of her nightmares it frustrated him greatly that he could not read her mind, that he could not tell what it was that troubled her.
However he doubted that she even remembered the fact that he had soothed her once. It mattered little though, he knew that he could not have her, could never be with her the way he would of wished. Things had changed, although he would admit his current activities were indeed cowardly, was he hiding his own feelings by dating another? Perhaps, although he hoped not. He kept telling himself silently that maybe there was something between he and Katherine just something, anything?
At any rate, with the sun shining brightly on and off, as it danced between the clouds, Edward had skipped school that day as per usual and was currently hunting. His eyes were pitch black, empty and lustful with the need for blood, for the thrill of the kill so to speak. Running swiftly through the vast expanse of forest, he moved elegantly in and out of the many tree's the only thing that drove him on at that moment was thirst. Hours passed in which he had killed his third deer, yet his thirst didn't wish to be stated, yet he refused to kill more, he wouldn't kill any more, at least not to day, that was not him. Rising from the carcass of his third kill Edward tasted the air softly. It was then the scent of something so strong, so sweet captured his attention and sent his body into over drive once again. One scent he knew anywhere.
Pushing on within moment he reached the meadow, his meadow. Or what he liked to think was his, the sun shone brightly as before him lay the open space of the meadow, as he hung to the shadows, he glowered. Just ahead, Bella sat. Underneath a large tree, was she that foolish? He could see her cast, see the obvious pain and discomfort that she seemed to be suffering. With a small frustrated huff, why would she not listen to anything? He moved swiftly around the trees until he was only a few feet behind her. "What are you doing here?" he questioned simply and choose to specifically not listen to her small subtle comments about telling Jacob things. Which Edward was fairly certain he knew of.
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Post by Isabella Marie Swan on Feb 19, 2011 9:45:40 GMT -5
Bella looked down at her casted leg and frowned slightly. It hurt to walk, even to move. But she hadn't planned on staying in bed all day just because of a broken leg and a few headaches. She needed to get out, get some fresh air, be anywhere other than at home with Alice who seemed to be angry with her. Granted her sister had good reasons behind her anger. Bella had told her everything that happened between her and Edward and Alice seemed to go into protective big sister mode almost immediately.
It wasn't a bad thing. Bella was happy Alice cared so much but sometimes Alice had a way of being...mean when she was upset or angry, weather it was intentional or not, she knew her sister was being less than kind toward Edward.
All these thoughts circulating in her mind. Alice, Jacob, Edward, Esme....everyone wanted something different from her.
Esme and Alice wanted her to be with Jacob. Jacob wanted her to be his perfect yet slightly flawed wife and Edward wanted her to be his though he seemed to have trouble admitting it. It was almost like what she wanted didnt matter. Like what Bella wanted and needed was of no concern to anyone else.
She was beyond angry and annoyed with everyone. Tired of trying to get everyone approval. It didnt matter what Alice thought of her being friends with Edward. It didnt matter if Jacob didnt like Edward or if Edward didn't approve of her being with Jacob...she could find a way to keep Edward in her life and be with Jacob. There was no need to hurt any of them...she could be friends with Edward, it shouldnt be this hard.
She sighed lightly before being pulled back to reality by the sound of a familiar voice and looked up, smiling a bit "Thinking, can't you tell?" she half teased, knowing he wouldnt have been able to tell she was thinking since he couldnt read her mind like he could anyone elses "I've made up my mind...Im gonna stay with Jacob and be friends with you. And your coming to the wedding, I want you there...its for family and friends. It wouldnt feel right if one of the best people i've met didnt show up and bring his brother with him so...you, Emmett and Katherine are invited and no, this isnt up for debate...I really want you there. It'd mean alot."
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Post by Edward Anthony Cullen on Feb 20, 2011 8:38:10 GMT -5
you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTJ U S T T A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -As Edward questioned Bella, whom remained sitting by the tree, and he himself hung back into the shelter of the leaves, a shield form the sun. She replied simply with a teasing smile, that did odd things to his general being, but he diminished the feelings instantly he couldn't do that, he couldn't feel that now. He had promised himself that, and had told Bella just that also. However what she said next he knew he should of expected but how was it that when she told him it was such a surprise?
I've made up my mind...Im gonna stay with Jacob and be friends with you. Stay friend's? it wasn't that easy, they couldn't be friends, he wasn't that strong and it would only lead to something else for all he knew and he couldn't afford to do that to Bella, to ruin her relationship with Jacob, and to no doubt ruin her future. And your coming to the wedding, I want you there...its for family and friends. It wouldn't feel right if one of the best people I've met didn't show up and bring his brother with him Again with the invite to the wedding? To her and Jacobs wedding and with Alice there, he doubted it was a good idea, and by his showing up the chances of ruining her day, ruining Jacob's day also was pretty high. "Bella.." He begun to argue although she soon continued none the less.
so...you, Emmett and Katherine are invited and no, this isn't up for debate...I really want you there. It'd mean a lot. Bella finished, but he just couldn't it wasn't fair and it wasn't right. "Bella, I can't. I know you may well want me there, but you would be the only person. I don't wish to ruin your day, I'm afraid I won't be attending. You mistake me for some..indestructable being, but that's not true. I know I should not say this, but you Bella--" He paused, before he looked down to her and before he himself slid down the tree on the other side so that he did not look at her, but as he sat down, sheltered from the sun, his knees raised and his arms draping across them. "--You are my only weakness, you may say what you like. I may appear strong, but in reality I'm not. To see you marry another, I doubt I'm that strong." he admitted and shook his head instantly regretting it, he shouldn't of said it, he shouldn't even be speaking to her at the moment. Resting his head back against the tree trunk, he lifted his gaze up watching the fleeting rays of sun slip through the small gaps in between leaves. "Besides, I believe I'm..busy that day..Katherine and I are going hunting in the mountains." he added, perhaps it was a pathetic excuse, and they would be or so he planned to.
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