lost in thought -edward-

[Edward Anthony Cullen]

When Alice seemed to apologize for her behavior, Edward expression remained unreadable and he himself didn't move. He knew Bella was stubborn, and he also knew that he had to be twice as stubborn, but he couldn't do anything about that, he could try, and try again, but in the end it wouldn't change anything, wouldn't change her mind no matter how hard he tried. Edward in the next moment wasn't all that surprised when Alice moved to wards him after he had insulted Jacob in what he would admit was a childish gesture, at the same time he could not deny the sudden pang of jealousy. An emotion he had never really felt before, one he probably shouldn't feel, he had only known Bella for a while, yes they had kissed as guilty as he felt he knew that was wrong, and he had told Bella this, he had told her to forget about him. Yet she would have none of it, it only caused her to persist even further.

Even with her insults he was fighting the temptation to laugh only for a brief fraction of time. Alice was clueless, completely so, if she knew what he was then he was certain that she would be singing a different tune. "If that is what you say, I wish you best of luck. Yet you do not know me, so I would appreciate it if you did not make comparisons between me and another being, or a dog as you so put it." he added his tone serious, yet his words truthful, she didn't know him in the slightest bit, so who was she to make such comments? After he had finished one comment Alice moved straight onto the next topic. The words hit him harder than they should of and irritation and mild anger flared.
I don't see him chasing an engaged girl. Chasing after? hardly, he had not once persisted in chasing her. "I Have not been chasing her, In fact I have told her countless times to go to Jacob, when she would visit me I told her, to go away, told her I didn't want her, I told her to go with Jacob." he stated, what more could he possibly do? he was running out of options, if he had simply let her stay things could of gotten a lot worse and a lot more quickly, so why was Alice not seeing that? He was not being a coward, he was not running, if anything running away was quickly turning into his last and only option.

When he advanced given the situation, Alice turned and glowered at him hate and annoyance evident in her gaze.
I told you to stay out of my head. Edward simple smile, a small lazy half smile if anything before he replied his tone brisk as he snapped his response. "Perhaps you should be more careful with your thoughts?" Still Alice answered moments later and Edward could for now, do nothing but listen. Of course her comments could not of made her point as loud and as clear as she had made it, all of it she had twisted to work in her favor, true this Jasper, or Alice were obviously not engaged, but that was a moot point the feelings and the attractions were always the same, would always be the same that was how things were done, and how they had always been. One would find someone, only for them, a soul mate as they were called, the other half to their puzzle. Yet some people were to shallow, and perhaps to naive to even see that? "No matter the situations, the feelings are the same, the situation shouldn't matter, but I know that it does, I want what is best for both myself, and for Bella, and her being with Jacob is the best thing possible. Believe me. I have told her that I was going to leave, told her to be with Jacob, but she wouldn't allow me to leave, and she wanted to throw it all away. Only after I had said and repeatedly said that I did not want her, that we couldn't be together no matter what, only then did she listen. I'm telling you now, that I am only concerned for her, and I thought it best to tell you about this, clearly I had been mistaken." he muttered his tone cold, why had he ever bothered, why had he even tried to convince Alice otherwise? It had been a mistake.

When Alice then muttered tones about getting a girlfriend. He understood that, yet it wasn't easy would never really be easy. Yet what Alice was insinuating only aggravated him. "So you wish that I sink that low? That I date someone out of spite? to date someone simply to discourage her? I may not be human so to say. But I have my morals, If I was to ever date someone, I would not love them, because I have already given my heart away. If I was to date another, I know I would be lying to them and to myself, and I wish that on no one, I will not accept love freely given only to smash it into a thousand pieces. That I cannot do, no matter who they are. " he stated his tone stern, his mind set, he could never really date another, if that was the case it would be an experience nothing could ever come off from it. He wouldn't let it, if they got to close then he would simply turn them away. Before any serious damage was done. "Just because you have been hurt in the past does not mean all are the same." he stated looking to Alice for a moment before he then turned on his heel and begun to walk away.

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[Mary Alice Swan]

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"No you're right. Some are worse." Alice said darkly as she watched Edward walk away then turned and headed further into the forest and away from the male. At the moment, Edward Cullen was the lowest of the low in Alice's mind. He was disgusting and she wanted nothing to do with him. Having been on the receiving end of getting her heart ripped out, Alice saw the path that her sister was walking with Edward. She had already lost some respect for her sister since she had began chasing Edward, if anything came of her sister running after him then Alice would lose all respect for her sister. Edward she had no respect for since despite the fact that it was her sister doing the chasing, Edward still wasn't stopping it. Sure he could be telling the truth and he could be telling Bella to leave him alone but actions spoke louder then words. If he wanted Alice to even remotely respect him then he would figure out some way to stop Bella from chasing after him.

Coming to a stop a few yards away, Alice moved to stand next to a tree then leaned back against it before sliding slowly down to the ground. Sitting cross legged on the floor, Alice found her thoughts wandering to Jasper. Edward had been right about her growing feelings towards the new guy in town but like Alice told Edward, her situation with Jasper was a lot more different then the situation that Edward was in with Bella. Neither he nor Alice was engaged and neither one of them was stalking the other. If they passed each other in the hall they would nod in acknowledgment, maybe even say hi or something, but she wasn't making a fool of herself and chasing after him. Neither was he stalking her or leaving her with no alternatives. As far as Alice was concerned, she and Jasper were being a lot more mature about their attraction to each other then Bella and Edward were being.

Closing her eyes, Alice leaned her head back against the tree and found a small piece of her wishing Edward and his family had never moved to Forks. Yet in the back of her head, a small piece of her was glad he was there. If all it took was a new good looking guy to move to town for Bella to begin to stray, maybe it was better that it happened before Bella got married. Even though Alice knew it would kill Jacob for Bella to call off their engagement, it would be better then Bella running off and having an affair after the two were man and wife. As Alice tried to relax against the tree, she found her thoughts drifting off to Jasper and the anger and annoyance she had been feeling towards her sister and Edward slowly faded. With her thoughts on Jasper, Alice found herself smiling slightly as she pushed all the negative feelings and thoughts she'd been having away.

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