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Post by Edward Anthony Cullen on Dec 17, 2010 17:22:20 GMT -5
  Its nothing. The wolves have been keeping her away, Jacob's been standing guard outside my house every night... Bella stated, frowning softly, Edward listened, It didn't sound like nothing, a vampire no matter, who or what they were, never really worked alone, unless they were a new born, but new Born's, usually went all out crazy, it seemed to him this Victoria, wasn't a new born, she had a plan of some kind, but what was the purpose? Why was Victoria even after Bella? what possible reason did she have? it was this part that confused him the most. However soon enough their conversation drifted to more serious topics, a topic that he was not willing to discuss yet Bella left him with no choice. When she said out loud what he was, and after he had asked her if she was afraid, he waited silently for her reply watching her all the while, as she looked to him she showed no signs of fear, nothing.
Remaining where he stood he met her wide chocolate brown eyes, that held such warmth, combined with determination, the determination not to back down, not to show him any forms of possible fear. However her scent continued to swim around him, yet there where no traces of fear mingled with her scent. Was she not scared? not in the slightest? Watching her features it became clear, she wasn't scared of him, but of her self. Of what she felt for him, if anything for that matter. The question was, what did they do now? What did he do now? Bella knew his secret, knew what he was. It was no longer safe to be around her, her life depended on it. He frowned again and looked down for a moment before he spoke, not meeting her eyes. "You need to go. I need to go." he admitted it was simply too dangerous for Bella now, a friendship, any hopes of a friendship, it would be hard, difficult even. Perhaps it was simply better that he left, Carlisle, he had been talking about it for a while now, there was too much at risk and now Bella's life was added to that list.
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Post by Isabella Marie Swan on Dec 19, 2010 9:11:05 GMT -5
I'M FALLEN EVEN MORE IN LOVE WITH YOU
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Sucking in her bottom lip, she looked down at her feet. She wasnt afraid of him, that much was true. She wasn't worried that he might hurt her or try to kill her. She knew for a fact that he wouldnt, if he wanted to hurt her in any way then he would have done so by now. He had plenty of time to hurt her in the time they'd been spending together. The two hours they spent in the forest the other day when he'd walked her home nad now, once more alone in the forest...both were perfect oppurtunities to kill her, to get rid of the one person who knew his secret and yet he did nothing.
She frowned a bit, only looking up as he spoke. She didnt understand why, she couldn't understand but that sentence...what he'd just said, it hurt more than she thought it should have and for a moment he wondered if he knew just how much that hurt her, if he knew how much him telling her that she needed to go hurt her.
SHe shook her head stubbornly and moved closer before he could protest. She was standing so close to him, face to face. Though he refused to look at her, she stared at him "I dont need to go." she whispered, biting her lip lightly I- I dont want to..." her face had gotten somewhat serious, her eyes set...Dangerous or not, she couldnt ignore him, couldnt ignore what she felt for him...it was too late now anyway...she couldn't go off and marry Jacob, not now. It wouldnt be fair to him or to her, it would be a lie...every hug, every kiss every 'I love you' wouldn't be completely true.
Im not afraid of you..." her voice was softer this time, barely a whisper and she wondered if what she said next would change anything at all, if it would change his mind...make him realize it was too little too late "Im only afraid of losing you, I feel like your gonna disappear..."
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Post by Edward Anthony Cullen on Dec 19, 2010 10:27:50 GMT -5
Both annoyed and irritated didn't even come close to his reaction given the fact Bella did nothing, she didn't run she didn't leave. In fact she moved closer, closer than anyone had ever really been to him, her body very nearly touched his own, he breath brushed his jaw, and his neck even though he would not, could not look at her, he found that he too couldn't even move, he didn't want to move at that moment and simply wished to remain in such close proximity to Bella, her scent surrounded him, teased him almost he exhaled lowly and deeply, as he tried to clear his head although it was proving difficult to think about anything else other than Bella. He also tried to look anywhere but at Bella he didn't think he was strong enough to look at her and to move away, if anything he would only do something he regretted, or she regretted, he was playing with fire, they both were, whatever attraction the two of the shared it was dangerous.
I don't need to go. I- I don't want to... Bella whispered her tone serious, desperate almost, it sounded like it was the last thing she wanted to do. He shook his head and looked down, he didn't like the sound of this, of where it was going. He frowned, someone would get hurt of that he was sure. Before he could speak Bella continued, which only raised further thoughts, this was wrong, so very wrong, but why did it feel so right? Why could he only think about Bella, the girl that stood before him, her eyes wide and serious, her hair falling perfectly around her shoulder, around her heart shaped face. I'm not afraid of you... Bella added her voice soft, he felt her eyes upon him, searching him, reaching for his eyes. With a frown present he looked down to the floor before Bella, although he wasn't aware until now how little the amount of space was between them. "No, Bella don't."
He begun although Bella refused to listen once again and continued, she said the few words that he feared, the few words that confirmed everything he had hoped to be a mere interest.
I'm only afraid of losing you, I feel like your gonna disappear... Bella then said Shaking his head he didn't want to believe it, but he couldn't deny what he felt for Bella, or now what she felt for him. Finally Edward lifted his gaze to meet Bella's own, where he held her gaze so very intently, emotion burned, emotion he had tired hard to hide, but what was the use? He was tired of hiding, of hiding what he felt, he couldn't run from it. With her words silence passed for a few moments, he wished then to raise his hand to reach out and touch her cheek, to feel the warmth flood against the coldness of his marble skin, it was then he said the one thing that too would change everything. "I'm not going anywhere..I can't. Not now." Edward admitted, his voice was soft and low for Bella's ears alone, although low, his voice held an edge of intamcy.
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Post by Isabella Marie Swan on Dec 19, 2010 14:29:30 GMT -5
I'M FALLEN EVEN MORE IN LOVE WITH YOU
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He said dont, told her not to finish what she had to say but it'd been far too late and there was no going back. She knew then that saying that would change everything, not just for her but for him as well. It would possibly ruin everything she'd worked so hard to get with Jacob. Their happy relationship, their engagement. She was throwing it all away for a guy she narely knew.
Bella looked at him with a very small smile, happy he said he was not going to leave. That was really the most perfect thing he could have said at that moment. It was reassuring to know that he wouldn't leave. That he would stay.
She moved closer then, standing on her toes a bit to better reach his face. She wasn't afraid, her had held no fear. Her heart was beating quickly, pounding in her chest and her breath went up a notch but she didnt care, there was only one reason her body acted the way it was...it was him. Being so close to him made it near impossible for her to breath.
Her eyes searched his face before meeting his own golden eyes, though they were just a bit darker than before she still did not back away. Instead she moved one hand very lightly to his cheek, just cupping his face. There was nothing, absolutely nothing she wasnt more in that moment than to kiss him but something told her it would be somewhat difficult for him. She was well aware that he was drawn to her, not just her but her blood.
Despite knowing this, despite knowing that he would not be able to control himself all that well, she stood high on her toes and brought her face closer to his, first kissing his cheek and carefully moving her lips closer to his, edging closer with each second before she reached the corner of his mouth. She paused, dare she kiss him? Ruin everything? Jacob's life...she knew that she would be breaking Jacob's heart but she couldn't help herself, the thing she wanted most in the world was there, in front of her and she was going to take advantage of it.
Finally, without second thought, she pressed her lips very lightly against his.
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Post by Edward Anthony Cullen on Dec 19, 2010 15:38:20 GMT -5
No matter what he told her, what he did to steer her otherwise, to stop her from speaking further it did nothing to stop the words that left her mouth moments later. When he admitted that he couldn't leave, not now, not with this strong odd emotional bond between them. He didn't want to move, he didn't want to let her out of his sight not now, not ever. Gazing to her for a long moment he gave into the temptation, raising his hand slowly his fingertips touched her cheek gently. "Bella.." he begun although words were trapped in his throat in his dead, empty chest. He could hear the erratic heart beat pounding in her chest echoing in his ears, her blood as it pumped though her body was strong and equally just as fast. Slowly when he placed his hand completely on her warm cheek, his thumb softly stroked her cheek heart seared his hands, yet it felt in that moment like a sudden huge weight was lifted, he felt whole. Happy even, was it due to Bella?
When she smiled, a small gentle smile he continued to gaze at her, very slightly the corners of his lips tilted into a gentle crooked smile, however he paused then as Bella stepped closer still her scent asphyxiating, consuming him, her scent was like a drug, something that felt so good yet something he knew was all to bad for him, but at the same time it was something that he couldn't resist. It called to him strongly and he felt himself slipping beneath the surface, being pulled under with a strong current. Why wasn't she afraid, even though she knew what he was, what he could do yet here she was standing before him her neck exposed and so very close to his lips, it was torture. How would he ever control himself around her? what happened now? when they had more or less openly admitted their feelings to wards one another although without actually admitting their feelings but the principle was still there.
Suddenly he felt warmth seer his cheeks, Bella had pressed her hand against his cheek, the sensation that crept along his body was strong, such a simple touch felt so wonderful, the first real contact he had, had in many years. Before he registered what was happening Bella had moved her head closer, instantly he froze, she wouldn't so soon would she? He couldn't.. the closeness would consume him, along with her scent the touch of her lips on his cheek, he raised a hand to take her hand that rested against his cheek he was about to remove it to tell her not too, to not risk it but he found himself frozen, his breath although not needed had caught in his throat, the tension in the air rose higher, the need to touch her stronger than it had ever been that night. She was too close, before he could do anything further he felt heat flare on his cheek for a second time that night, his cold hand had wrapped around Bella's own, the one that had only moments ago been pressed against his cheek.
Bella's breath teased at his cheek, and at his neck. He had to move away at any moment, he knew that he should this was beyond healthy. Yet still in his place he felt her lips trail along his cheek edging to wards his lips, the anticipation was killing him then, raising his other hand he placed his hand softly and delicately on her side he felt the warmth from her body through the fabric of her top, without thought, without even realizing for most of it, Edward slowly turned his head to wards Bella, his breath caught for a moment before he exhaled a short, almost harsh breath. Just then Bella's lips met his own, sudden warmth seemed to rush to her lips he pressed his lips slightly deeper against Bella's needing to taste her at that moment, her scent surrounded him, the taste of her lips was so very sweet. The sensations that he felt ignited something within him something he didn't have any real form of control over. But what he knew at that moment was right here, and right now all that he wanted, all that he needed was Bella, Pressing his lips to Bella's still, his hand only briefly tightened around Bella, pulling her that bit more closer.
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Post by Isabella Marie Swan on Dec 20, 2010 10:23:56 GMT -5
I'M FALLEN EVEN MORE IN LOVE WITH YOU
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She didnt understand it until now, couldnt admit to it until their lips met. But her confusion had lifted, everything she had been thinking about...her feelings for Edward, her feelings for Jacob. It was all very clear in this moment. She was in love with Edward and weather the feeling was mutual or if he was, like Alice said, playing her, she felt it was more than worth the risk.
She felt her arms move up to wrap gently around his neck, her breath hitched and her eyes closed. She'd never kissed anyone other than Jacob. He was her first best friend,her first date, her first kiss, her first love...her first everything and despite still loving him now, she could no longer deny her feelings for Edward. The boy who irritated her and angered her, who constantly avoided and ignored her was the one that she wanted more than anything in the world.
As he pulled her closer, a small gasp fled her lips. Their bodies touched, her chest pressed against his own and her lips only worked more against his as he returned the kiss. Deepening it, making it all the more passionate.
Seconds passed and Bella, finally realizng she hadnt breathed yet, finally realizing how light headed and dizzy she was, pulled her lips from his and took in a deep but calm breath. Her eyes gazed into his own with a look she'd often saved for Jacob. A look of love and deep caring. Devotion and the smallest bit of fear...fear that he might realize he could do much better than her, that he would leave her for someone prettier, far more beautiful than she was...as much as she would hate that and as much as it would hurt, she couldnt blame them. After all there wasnt much for anyone to like. She was average in looks. Maybe less than average. She was clumsy and she was fairly certain Edward would grow tired of her stubborn attitude.
She didnt say anyhting, instead she looked at him, hoping he would say something. Though part of her knew what he would end up saying 'this was a mistake. It shouldn't have happened.' and that thought of what he would say only made her more anxious for him to say something, anything.
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Post by Edward Anthony Cullen on Dec 20, 2010 12:12:22 GMT -5
Never had he kissed with such emotion as he was now, never had he felt such need, and such desire, and all of this, all of it was for this human. Bella. He was prepared to give up everything, to risk everything for a girl he barely knew, but a girl that he loved. There was no use in denying it, not anymore, no matter how he tried he could not escape his feelings, his desires for Bella. Against better judgment, Bella deepened the kiss, he felt himself slipping loosing any ounce of control he knew he had to stop at that moment or it would be too late and mistakes would be made, as if this one kiss wasn't one already. His eyes opened, he heard the beating of Bella's struggling heart as it craved sudden oxygen, he felt the need to bite at that moment the intensity of emotions were building, he had to stop, right now. He broke the kiss seconds before Bella herself broke it. Without thinking he moved away a few steps within a second faster than any human eye would register. Edward's eyes were hard, dangerous he took a moment to collect himself, as he took deep shuddering breaths, he looked to Bella, across the distance he had created of about a meter.
Her eyes met his and he was momentarily shocked by the emotion he saw behind her gaze, behind her eyes. Did his eyes mirror such emotions? perhaps he felt them deep inside his empty, dead chest something had sparked, something had come alive. His posture tense, and his jaw set, slowly they begun to relax a fraction, what happened now? He knew the right thing was to let her stay with the dog, to convince her to stay with the dog, "Bella.." He begun although he was finding it hard to find words that could express all that he felt at that moment, desire, love, compassion, guilt, need. So many emotions they clouded his mind. Glancing down briefly he looked back up to Bella and slowly made his way once again back over to her, closing the space. Words soon left his lips. He knew how Bella felt, perhaps she knew how he felt, what more damage could possibly be caused? "..The Lion fell in love with the lamb" he stated it was the only words that he could think of the only words that could express everything.
Stopping before he he met her gaze, his eyes had relaxed, his expression was calm his posture just as calm yet wary of everything. Although he would hate the next words that would leave his lips, what other choice did he have? "Bella..this was wrong, I'm sorry it happened, it wasn't my intention, please Bella you have to go, go back to Jacob, I'm no good for you, but I will be here for you always. As long as you want me." Edward stated his eyes were soft, they sought for her to understand, to listen to him for once. He wanted to do the right thing, although it would hurt him, admittedly to see her with the dog. By telling her this, it was the right thing, no more damage should be caused because of him, he didn't deserve happiness, didn't deserve Bella. Yet, she deserved Jacob, deserved a life, but as he had told her, he would be there for her, as long as she wished him to be.
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Post by Isabella Marie Swan on Dec 20, 2010 12:41:45 GMT -5
I'M FALLEN EVEN MORE IN LOVE WITH YOU
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Bella's eyes were suddenly sad, listening to him speaking. Her lip trembled but her expression hardened. She knew those words were coming. It was to be expected. She never was the girl to attract a guys attention. Alice had been right then, by saying Edward was only messing with her. She shook her head a bit, clearly on the verge of tears.
He cant say he loved her and then say they couldn't be together, it didnt work like that.
Her soft eyes turned into a glare and she forced herself not to cry "No...y-you dont say you love someone and then tell them that your not good. Thats not your choice. You dont get to tell me who is right or wrong for me?!" she snapped furiously, stomping her foot against the ground so hard it hurt. Her voice was louder than she intended it to be but she couldnt bring herself to care.
Words flew from her mouth before she could stop them "Go...I dont want you to be here for me...I have someone here for me...I dont want you here for me if you cant be with me..." she muttered under her breath, though her expression remained as angry and hurt as it was seconds ago.
She wasn't perfect like him, she wasnt flawless and amazingly beautiful. But clearly there were bigger differences...the fact that he didnt seem to feel any emotion at all.
Bella looked away from him seconds later, walking passed him. She knew he'd try and walk her back to make sure she was safe and that was why she spoke the next words the left her mouth "Dont follow me...I dont need you..." she loved him, yes but the fact that Alice had clearly been right was what hurt the most, the fact that she very nearly gave up everything she had with Jacob for a guy she barely knew...she knew then she was either insane or stupid...maybe a bit of both.
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Post by Edward Anthony Cullen on Dec 20, 2010 16:28:23 GMT -5
As soon as the words left his lips the expression that crossed Bella's features, made him wish to take everything back, the pan he saw, the sadness everything. Bella hated him at that moment, who could blame her perhaps he had led her on only to turn her away? No, it was a lie, he wanted her, wanted Bella more than anything and for her to be his, and his alone, but Edward didn't deserve her, he had done nothing to deserve her, that was why he felt guilty. "Bella.." he begun in attempts to sooth the emotion he saw, yet before he could say anything more, she spoke her tone waved, her eyes watered if only a fraction.
No...y-you don't say you love someone and then tell them that your not good. That's not your choice. You don't get to tell me who is right or wrong for me?! Bella said the pain in her voice and expression made the guilt all that much more heavy Go...I don't want you to be here for me...I have someone here for me...I don't want you here for me if you cant be with me... She continued, each word stung more so than it probably should have. He shook his head, this wasn't how he wanted things to go, it wasn't right, and wasn't fair on her.
"Bella, listen to me.." Edward begun only to be cut off once again as Bella walked past him with words of hurt, her expression angered, as she walked past him he reached out a hand and lightly clasped Bella's arm, although not enough to bruise, or to hurt. Turning her around to face him he met her gaze "Wait..do you think that I don't want to be with you? that I don't..love you? Bella, I have never felt this way about anyone, and so suddenly too, please just hear me out." He pleaded as he slowly let go of her arm his body turned to face her. "I may not be..human but I am a man, I have morals, I have made mistakes in my past..none that I am happy with I don't deserve you, I don't deserve to be happy, and you don't deserve me, I am no good for you although I love you. I'm sorry, for what's happened your better off with Jacob, go to him. If you don't want me in your life, then tell me look at me and tell me, and I shall leave, my family and I we will go, and you won't hear from us, you'll forget us in time." Edward stated all the while his eyes were fixed upon Bella, not once did he blink or look away, his words were the truth, his emotions shone brightly in the depth of his dull golden eyes, he couldn't let her throw everything away for him, that wasn't how it was supposed to be.
They had kissed, emotions he thought impossible had surfaced. Yet his mind outweighed his heart. "Your happy with Jacob. Stay with him, I am no good. Your better off with him, you have a chance at a life with him, not me. I can't tell you what to do Bella, but I can only advise you." Edward added but as she requested he looked to her for a long moment before he slowly turned around he would leave if that was what she wanted, they were due to leave he and his family, it was only a matter of time before people begun to notice. Slowly and reluctantly he begun to walk away, each step proving harder and harder to move away, from the one chance he would ever have at happiness, but the one chance he didn't deserve, what he had done. He had condemned himself, that was how it should be, how it was. He was a man yes, but he was still a monster, one too dangerous for Bella, already he had endangered her life enough.
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Post by Isabella Marie Swan on Dec 22, 2010 0:54:51 GMT -5
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"No, you dont love me..." she fought with the words she was about to say, contemplating for a few seconds, but it slipped "Its kind of hard to love with a heart thats not beating..."
Her eyes were hard, clearly fighting what ever emotional attachment she felt for him. She would have to hide it, clearly this was leading nowhere fast and she was almost ready to throw away everything with Jacob for him "Im done listening, let go of me!" she half shouted at him, glaring angrily before averting her gaze. She looked everywhere except at him.
As he continued to speak Bella shook her head, still stubborn and unwilling to give up. He said to look at him, tell him she didnt want him and though she knew it was impossible to do, she raised her head to stare him in the eyes "I...Fine, I dont want you in my life. I dont want you at my school or with my friends or anywhere near this town!" she spoke in a sudden explosion. In all hoesty, she knew she was acting like a bit of a child, stomping her foot on the ground and trying to pulled her arm away from him as much as she was wasnt helping.
"I...im happier here." she bit her lip, hoping he wouldnt be able ot hear her speaking. She was tying to speak as low as humanly possible "With you..."
As he released her arm and turned to walk away, Bella bit hard on her lip "Once the wedding day comes, its too late. Once Jacob and I say 'I do'..." she shuddered lightly atthe sound of those words "Thats it, after that...you and me- whatever we had here...its done."
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Post by Edward Anthony Cullen on Dec 23, 2010 7:58:29 GMT -5
Gazing at her for a long moment the silence that stretched was filled with tension, tension that was unknown to him, not a moment to soon, Bella spoke, her words cold and harsh, words that hurt Edward deeply,
No, you don't love me..Its kind of hard to love with a heart thats not beating... His face fell, pain, and hurt flickered across his feature for the briefest of moment before he flicked of the switch, that allowed him to feel, so that at that moment he felt nothing, his eyes flashed darker, the emotion within them snuffed out like a candle light, his eye cold and hard, seemingly penetrating through Bella's skin seeing into her very depths, he was no longer Edward. He was a vampire. "You don't know me, and how dare you insinuate what I do and do not feel." he snapped his tone cold, although level, devoid of all possible emotion, he was hurt, hurt deeply and he hoped Bella knew that.
I'm done listening, let go of me! Bella snapped in reply, with a cold gaze he released her arm before he could do any real damage. I...Fine, I don't want you in my life. I don't want you at my school or with my friends or anywhere near this town! If that was what she wanted then so be it, he was acting in her best interest, why should she give up her chance at a decent life with the one being she was content with, why should she drop all that for the likes of him? did she not see the reason? "Fine. If that is what you want. Consider it done." Edward commented before he turned away and begun walking off, his steps swift his motions effortless. Just then he heard her speak, he stopped for a moment and turned his head a fraction to hear it all that more clearly. Yet he would not, and did not look at her, for he refused to. She had admitted in that moment that she was happier when she was with him, and in all truth, he had never been happier before he had met Bella, before they had shared such an intimate moment.
Yet if he was to say that now, it would ruin things that much more, something he wasn't prepared to do.
Once the wedding day comes, its too late. Once Jacob and I say 'I do'...Thats it, after that...you and me- whatever we had here...its done. He heard Bella continue before he looked ahead and closed his eyes briefly it was better this way, he was acting in the best interest of Bella alone, he had met Alice, they had talked, and he saw her reason, He would have to stay away from Bella, it was the only way to keep her safe, it was better for her, what did his emotions matter? nothing mattered not now, they only ever mattered when Bella was involved. In a low voice that carried across the forest to Bella, he spoke, knowing it was the last words she would ever hear before he left, he would move back to Denali..maybe try and find Katherine? Maybe go to Tanya? something, anything, he couldn't afford such attachments. So for last terms he slightly once again looked over his shoulder but refused to look at her. "Good. So Be it." The words left his mouth, they were a lie, a stone cold lie. He didn't think, didn't feel. It was better that way. Turning once again Edward begun to walk away, a moment later he picked up his feet and moved swiftly away, leaving, his feelings, his heart and everything else behind. Bella didn't need him, he had promised he would leave so that was exactly what he was doing.
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Post by Isabella Marie Swan on Dec 26, 2010 14:14:58 GMT -5
I'M FALLEN EVEN MORE IN LOVE WITH YOU
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Bella shook her head lightly. She regretted what she'd said as soon as the words left her mouth. 'Hard to love with a heart thats not beating'...that wasn't her, she was never this mean to anyone, even if they deserved it. Why she'd snapped like that, she didnt know but the very second she realized the expression on his face, she wished she could take back what she said "I didnt mean---" her voice was cut off by the smallest crack, her throat somewhat closed up as she fought off everything she was feeling.
She was just upset that he would do something so cruel as to make her fall for him and then say he was no good for her. She was hurt and upset and beyond angry "Its not what I want...its what you want to hear...you wanted me to say it so you'd have an excuse to leave. A reason for being gone...now you have it..." she whispered so low even she couldn't hear herself speaking though part of her knew he'dhear it. A voice so low human ears couldnt pick it up was most definitely heard by vampires.
Bella stood still for a minute as he left, her face immediately fell. Her eyes now saddened. Good, so be it. she bit her lip lightly, knowing that tomorrow and the next day and all the days that followed he wouldn't be the thing she saw when she went to school. He wouldn't be the first person she sought out when she drove into the schools parking lot. It wouldnt be his car that she parked in front of every single day. And while everyone seemed to think this was better, while Alice Edward and anyone involved in this situation felt they knew what was best for her, she knew more than they did and she knew that she wanted Edward...despite telling him to leave, telling him she didnt need him. She wanted him and no amount of space or time would change that.
Her legs moved from under her as she slipped clumsily to the ground, her hand scraping against the dirt and small rocks. She didnt pay any mind to it. She was more focused on keeping herself together, she couldn't go home a complete wreck. Crying and hysterical. Her family would think she'd lost her mind.
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